Updated: Oct 13, 2022
I’m finding it so hard to navigate life after my experience with Jesus over the last four years. I read the Bible and I know now it is used to discern the state of our heart. (Hebrews 4:12) So that’s solid in my mind.
What is difficult is all the things I see in the world. All the people who seem to have read it and got something totally different from it than I do. I get these messages and sermons teaching that God is someone that’s angry, keeping a score card, or a coach running beside us on the track screaming at us to get moving. That there’s no time to be a slacker and we are to stay in our own lane or that he’s a Father that says do as I say not as I do. While all this while I see him as a complete much better beautiful version of myself and you all.
As I struggle going back and forth worrying I’m never going to be perfect enough, smart enough, fast enough or a distance runner, I’m reminded by the Holy Sprit that
John says in 1 John 4:16 that God is love and that whoever abides in love abides in God. We are told in 1 John 4:18 perfect love cast out fear because fear has to do with worrying about punishment. So why is there so much talk about all this? How can God be a unconditional loving Father with conditions? Why would he give me or anyone a heart that is a better version of his own? That makes absolutely no sense.
Why would he give us a heart that can love our children so much that nothing they did would cause us to not love them, to not want to throw them away for eternity if he himself didn’t possess this same compassion?
Why would he tell us not to be jealous if he himself is jealous? Why would he tell us not to murder if he himself would tell those in the Old Testament to go out and massacre a whole tribe? Some will say they were evil that’s why, then I would ask why does he tell us to pray for our enemies not to kill them?
Please know I’m not questioning “The Word”, I’m questioning how we understand, rightly divide and teach it.
Why do we teach what Paul or Peter or any man said more than we teach what Jesus (God) said himself while here on earth?
He plainly told us in Matthew 22:36-40 that the two greatest commandments are to love God above all else and love each other as well or better than we love ourselves. That if we did this all law would be fulfilled.
We are clearly told in “The Word” that we won’t need a teacher, that the Holy Spirit will teach us all. I can tell you THAT is true!
When “The Word” tells us that God’s judgement will begin in the house of the Lord first, could it be because it’s that very house that has it wrong? Please know I’m not here to argue or persuade anyone to stop going to church but I am asking some very good questions that I believe God has give me the wisdom to ask. God bless